Monday, August 30, 2010

Rest In Peace, Mom. I Love You

The biggest fan of this blog died nearly a month ago.

She was my mom.

She had promised to help me turn this blog into a book one day. She, more than anyone else—even me, believed it was good enough to be worthy of putting in print. She was my biggest fan, my biggest supporter, and I miss her more than words on a screen can possibly convey.

You see, it wasn’t just the fact that the blog was mine that made my mom love it. My mom liked that my friends and I took our various dating adventures and turned them into blog posts. But don’t get me wrong, my mom was anxious to marry me off to some nice man. During her last visit to see me in June, she approached a guy’s table while we were out for a drink because I said he was cute. She asked his friend if the cute guy was “taken.” He wasn’t. We went on a few dates after that, all because of my mom.

I treasure that memory…and everything else my mom taught me. She was my best friend, the person who I’d talk to every day even if I hadn’t talked to anyone else. I was her baby girl—the middle child in the midst of an older sister and two younger brothers—yet she spoiled me until the day she died. I learned the day she died that it’s true when they say that no one loves you quite the way your mom does. But that’s okay because I will carry the love we shared with me for the rest of my life.

I have always had this thing where I tell my parents, my grandmom, and my brothers I love them before we hang up the phone, and they always say it back. For some reason, that’s been really comforting because I know my mom knows how much I love her. I don’t doubt that she still knows it.

I guess what I’m trying to say is, Thanks, Mom. I won’t get to call to thank you for giving me life on my birthday anymore, so I say it here for you to read from Heaven. I love you, I miss you, and I’ll see you again one day.

6 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry for your loss. It sounds like you and your mom had a wonderful relationship.

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  2. Hiyah! I've been reading your blog for months, probably shortly after you hit the blogosphere. We communicated via twitter and I was formerly located at my Pieces of Me blog. Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that you're in my prayers. I can ONLY imagine how broken your heart must be. My best friend's mom died a little over a year ago and it was devastating, but she's thriving and living a full life. My prayer will be that for you sweetie. I'm so sorry...

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  3. Just happened to stumble on your blog and I am glad that I did. First, let me say I am truly sorry for your loss. There is nothing like a mothers love. I just believe there must be a reason I found your blog, I started mine to use as therapy after my mother passed in March. I can empathize with your feelings. Your words seemed so similar to mine. I will pray for you and your strength during this difficult time. I look forward to reading.

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  4. Thanks to all of you for your comments. And to Rose, thanks very much for your comment. I'm sorry to hear about your mother, and from looking over your blog quickly, I can see you understand exactly what it's like. Thanks again for stopping by.

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  5. I wish you comfort in your time of grief. Your mom seemed like a fun person, a mom that others would want to have.

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  6. It’s never easy to lose a mother. I can’t imagine what I would do if I were in your position. But this is the reality. You just have to face it. Everything has a purpose, and I guess you just have to find the purpose behind that event.

    -Loria Schleiff

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